People who Journal

I desperately want to be a person who journals. Why? I just think people who journal are better. Better grounded. Better adjusted. Better in tune with themselves. Living their best lives. I have zero scientific proof or anecdotal evidence to support my opinion, I just believe it to be true. So, I want to be a person who journals. I have bought hundreds of lovely diary books and fancy journals in my adult lifetime. I have downloaded apps to journal online, thinking somehow I would stop scrolling social media long enough to journal. I own several ‘guided journal’ books and a book with 3000 (3000!) questions to ask yourself. I have asked none. I read article after article on journaling tips and…. nothing. My latest foray into journaling (or rather, my weird habit of buying journals I do not write in) was one called “burn after writing”. It is pretty cool. It asks you very deep questions about your past, present and future, along with fun lists of things you like, dislike etc. I read the entire book and filled out nothing, except the list of people I would like to punch in the face. Yeah, somehow, THAT list just flowed. I had to add a sheet of paper to fit all the names in. (I am kidding….or am I?). I am thinking that maybe my blog will become like a journal for me. Then I think how am I the kind of person who wants to write a journal for others to read? I don’t even like to tell my husband my thoughts, even though he is very supportive and never says I am crazy (out loud). Maybe it’s not that I want others to read it so much as it is that I am a person who rarely does things for myself. For example, I love homemade Belgian waffles. Periodically, my then three year old would request waffles, along with bacon and eggs for Sunday breakfast. After a few times, I noticed he never ate his waffle. I asked him why he asked me to make them and then didn’t eat them. He said “Mommy, I don’t like waffles, but I know you do. You won’t go to the trouble to make them for yourself, but you happily make them for me, so sometimes I ask for them so you get waffles.” Maybe if I think others are reading my posts, I will actually make them? So ask…..is anyone out there? hahah